65 days since that day with really nice weather.
i remember trying to look on the bright side of that day.
denial? definitely.
it was all too much for me to handle.
so i pushed it aside and focus on the good things.
because it was my last peaceful day before the war began.
we put cookie down on the 16th of march.
the day before i took her for our last walk to our park.
my sister, my dad, and i were all present at the vet's.
i dunno if i regret that or not.
it was the hardest thing i ever had to witness.
i cried the entire day. before, during, after.
i still have nightmare of that day.
they put her paw in clay because we didn't want any kind of burial.
i get chills every time i look at it.
tears always fill my eyes when i think about her.
falling now...
the house is almost sold.
they want us to move out by the 25th of may.
if no one makes a better offer by friday, we're taking the deal.
if we take it, i'll be spending the next month in a hotel.
i'm not sure how i feel about it.
i know this probably means i'll be spending most of the summer in maryland.
john doesn't even look at me in the hallways anymore.
no more trio. no more hooper ave.
i guess he got the hint. oh well.
guess that's what you get when you pretend you like me and are extremely clingy but then a jerk in person?
band is almost overrrrrrr!
what a relief.
so many lasts though.
gets me thinking.
but that's for a later update.
i got my license.
the freedom feels nice.
i got a job.
regal theaters.
i have training days on tuesday and wednesday of next week.
i'm nervous.
prom was a lot of fun.
it would have been not as fun without chris.
he's officially the one that got away.
he makes me think what if.
i don't like that.
i like being confident in my experience/choices.
i'll be attending rowan in the fall.
this means graduation is right about the corner.
i'm excited.
ROWANNNNNNNN '13!
but i've been slacking like crazy.
even if i fail all these crap classes now,
i'll still pass and be able to graduate on june 18th.
that right there is the reason i slack.
but my only actual class is english and i actually like that class.
she does gives a lot of work though, ha.
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